So I haven't had anybody I know let me know that they have read my blog. I'm kind of torn on this. On one hand I haven't told anyone about it other than Brittney. I have posted a link on my Myspace blog about it, but I have to admit that I'm curious who has read it. Supposedly 86 people by this current post have checked out the blog. Now I have it set where my home PC will not be counted which eliminates my wife or me checking it. I know it shows up when I google my name, but seriously how many people actually do that. But I haven't really gotten too in depth with this blog, cause it is new to me and I'm getting used to it. I haven't received any feedback or comments, which I don't know if that means its boring or just people haven't taken the time to do it or not. But nevertheless I'm still gonna post. I actually enjoy it, even though it doesn't fit in my personality characteristics. I'm very unorganized, but want to be. I normally wear my feelings on my sleeve, thus what to blog about? But there are still things which I have to say that I don't really talk to anyone about. But I wouldn't mind a question, or subject that one of the readers is curious how I feel about it. Huh?
So enough about that.....So....last Wednesday I was asked by my friend Blake Carling to cover for some players who couldn't make a rec basketball league. Well I said 'yes' and it sure was an interesting night. Well I got my bell rang, saw stars, got beat up, was blind-sided, whatever you wanna call it. Blake was head butted by an opposing player pretty hard, so he punched the kid. Well a scuffle took place and their whole team started kicking and punching him while he was on the ground. So I ran over there and started throwing people off of him. Well they all started after me. I don't even think I threw a punch. I didn't even get mad. In fact, the second thought I had right after the one about helping Blake was I can't hurt anybody. I could lose my real estate license if I get in trouble. That didn't work out so well in my favor. Trust me, I could have really hurt someone while they were all distracted with Blake. How easily could it have been for me to choose my target and kick someone in the ribs, or the back of the knees, or even elbow someone in the face or side of the head. Seriously I could have hurt someone pretty badly if I'd have been in a different situation. Well.....I didn't. As I was walking backwards, more like skipping backwards, trying to see who was gonna throw the punch at me, thats all I remember....One of them hit me from the side or the back, and down I went. I know I did not see a punch coming. That would have been easy to remember. The interesting part about it, is I can't figure out where I got hit. I was definitely bleeding a lot out of my nose, and it is still sore and bruised. My jaw was sore, and I couldn't close my teeth together, and I had a stubbed thumb. I highly doubt I was punched in the nose, cause it would have broke. Its not broken, just sore. Plus I'm not gonna get knocked out from my nose. But I think I was hit from the side right on the jaw below my ear. I've been hit before. In fact I've split my chin open from a train-like collision with another soccer player where he went flying and all I got was a gash to the bone on my chin. That didn't even phase me. In fact I remember it just got me mad, very mad. I didn't even know I was bleeding. So I got hit by a lucky punch from some guys who apparently couldn't fight mano-e-mano. Oh well. I've been on the opposite side of this, or at least seen it. I've never just beat anyone up like that, but I've seen others do it who I went to school with. I've heard it repeated, "friends don't let friends fight alone". Well these guys must have been friends.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
What I expect from 2008
Well I am currently 28, heading right into 29 years old, but I have to be honest when I say I'm not ready for kids yet. I love kids so much. They brighten my day when I get to play with them or just be goofy and silly with them. But I'm not quite ready in my marriage or life to be a daddy. I was looking through one of my scrapbooks that my awesome mother has worked so hard on, and I have so many great memories of my lil brothers growing up. I remember how much I loved them, and how happy I felt when they would look up to me or let me hold them and put them to sleep. That was so gratifying to me, and I know it will be even more special with my own kids, but there is just something that tells me its not time. I have the rest of my life to raise kids, I don't need to be in the typical Utah rush. I am excited at the thought of making my parents grandparents, and my brothers uncles, but they can be patient right along with me.
Last year I was so bummed to tear my adductor groin muscle cause I had every intention of getting fit to try out for the Utah State Select Mens soccer team. I know that the only thing that would keep me from making the team would be my fitness. Soccer players don't weigh over 200 pds let alone 205 pds. If I were to try out I would try to get around 190, 185 which I would be absolutely shredded at that weight but I would have to be to increase my fitness stamina and speed. I still have not fully recovered from my injury or I would tryout this year. So I hate to say that I don't know if I will get that opportunity again. I played at the highest level of soccer you can in this state in high school. Traveling to all of the surrounding states, playing their top club teams, but then played college football instead of soccer.
Another possibility is there is going to be another professional indoor football team starting up this spring called the Utah Saints. They will be similar to the Utah Warriors who played at the E center. I played one game for them, but was not retained as the kicker for the regular season. I had one of the best tryouts anyone could have with the Blaze but they did not pick anyone from that tryout. I would like to see how I fair with this new team if they ask me to come play. I know the owner, and all of the coaches pretty well. They have asked me play in some out of state tourneys with them before. I'm not quite sure how I will kick though, with the groin. I'm gonna test in out in the indoor league at the Oval next week. That will give me a better prospective on whether or I could play or not. We'll see. If not I'm gonna most likely continue playing my regular indoor soccer, outdoor soccer in the men's league, and on the Semi-pro football team the Utah Wolverines.
I'm excited to wakeboard this spring and summer. I felt a lot more comfortable last year, my 2nd year doing it. I want to try a lot more things this year if possible. I like messing around with different jumps, slides, turns, etc. My good friends, Brandon and Jesse both have some nice Wake boats and always invite us to come with them. We always appreciate them both and enjoy their company. Good times lay ahead.
I know the housing market has slowed down in the whole country and we have seen some of the effects of it here in Utah as well. Yeah things have slowed down, its also been winter and every winter is slow for me. I always have my phone ringing though, when the sun comes out so I really am not that worried. I'm just lucky to be in the situation I'm in. I don't live a crazy spending lifestyle, we don't have debt except the cars and the house, and my awesome wife loves her job. Not only do we get to fly for basically nothing, but she can contribute to our health benefits, retirement, and her additional income is definitely a bonus. I am always so proud of her. She enjoys being a contributor, and she shows me every day why I need to work that much harder to give her the things she wants.
Vacations we would like to do this year-Realistically
Last year I was so bummed to tear my adductor groin muscle cause I had every intention of getting fit to try out for the Utah State Select Mens soccer team. I know that the only thing that would keep me from making the team would be my fitness. Soccer players don't weigh over 200 pds let alone 205 pds. If I were to try out I would try to get around 190, 185 which I would be absolutely shredded at that weight but I would have to be to increase my fitness stamina and speed. I still have not fully recovered from my injury or I would tryout this year. So I hate to say that I don't know if I will get that opportunity again. I played at the highest level of soccer you can in this state in high school. Traveling to all of the surrounding states, playing their top club teams, but then played college football instead of soccer.
Another possibility is there is going to be another professional indoor football team starting up this spring called the Utah Saints. They will be similar to the Utah Warriors who played at the E center. I played one game for them, but was not retained as the kicker for the regular season. I had one of the best tryouts anyone could have with the Blaze but they did not pick anyone from that tryout. I would like to see how I fair with this new team if they ask me to come play. I know the owner, and all of the coaches pretty well. They have asked me play in some out of state tourneys with them before. I'm not quite sure how I will kick though, with the groin. I'm gonna test in out in the indoor league at the Oval next week. That will give me a better prospective on whether or I could play or not. We'll see. If not I'm gonna most likely continue playing my regular indoor soccer, outdoor soccer in the men's league, and on the Semi-pro football team the Utah Wolverines.
I'm excited to wakeboard this spring and summer. I felt a lot more comfortable last year, my 2nd year doing it. I want to try a lot more things this year if possible. I like messing around with different jumps, slides, turns, etc. My good friends, Brandon and Jesse both have some nice Wake boats and always invite us to come with them. We always appreciate them both and enjoy their company. Good times lay ahead.
I know the housing market has slowed down in the whole country and we have seen some of the effects of it here in Utah as well. Yeah things have slowed down, its also been winter and every winter is slow for me. I always have my phone ringing though, when the sun comes out so I really am not that worried. I'm just lucky to be in the situation I'm in. I don't live a crazy spending lifestyle, we don't have debt except the cars and the house, and my awesome wife loves her job. Not only do we get to fly for basically nothing, but she can contribute to our health benefits, retirement, and her additional income is definitely a bonus. I am always so proud of her. She enjoys being a contributor, and she shows me every day why I need to work that much harder to give her the things she wants.
Vacations we would like to do this year-Realistically
- Cancun
- Lake Powell-friends trip
- Denver-sister in law Amber, buddy Mike live there
- Phoenix-father in law lives there
- Orlando-Universal studios in October is amazing, and Disney World
- Hawaii-to see my cousin Macy and Brittney's friend Finau
- New York, DC-to spend some good history lesson time, & possibly a Baltimore Ravens game
- Mount Rushmore road trip-I've heard that the road there is full of awesome sights
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
2007-What I've learned from it
I would have to say the theme of 2007 was in some ways, a truly learning year. With the cyclone of incidents within my very large circle of friends, it all comes down to very simple concepts. When dealing with friends and family, it is easy to become too involved and eventually too frustrated to exit without making the situation worse. One statement that I can say which I hold on to, especially with all of the drama, mistakes, deceptions, and lies, is that "In order to be forgiven, you must be able to forgive". The only perfect person to ever walk this earth, was crucified while remaining perfect. Yet it is beyond the capacity of some of us to acknowledge our imperfections, while others dwell on them with drowning insecurities.
I personally try to acknowledge my imperfections and work on them with patience. I know that I'm not a perfect man. I know my abilities and certain qualities, but my vices or blemishes sometimes go without notice and so it takes someone to call me out on them or bring them to my attention for me to realize they are there. Now I understand that knowing my own imperfections just doesn't simply make them go away, but gives me a certain perspective in particular situations in my life where I might hurt someones feelings, or make another conscious of an insecurity. Now I try to do my best with handling these daily life dealings, but like I said earlier it takes patience with myself to fully grasp the imperfection.
I have learned with my close ones not too expect too much from anyone. It ultimately ends up in me getting let down or caught with my guard down. Now don't get me wrong, I still have expectations of others, just not to the extent where it could hurt me in the long run. It is sad but true, as the days of our lives pass us each day, we grow older and closer to being wrinkly, elder men and women. I personally feel that the one person that should be held more accountable and to a higher expectation is your spouse or significant other.
In my relatively young and still fresh life, I have seen good friends come and go. And I am a very social, and outgoing individual who in general loves all types of people. But unfortunately as time goes by, our human nature seems to reveal itself a little more. Survival of the Fittest. We tend to choose whats best for ourselves and not necessarily for others. Now the interesting thing is that it is not always a conscious thing that we do, but rather a slow process. Kind of like a plant amongst other living organisms, but has its sunlight slowly taken from it, but not deliberately. Other trees and shrubs grow larger and fuller and tend to nurture there own fruits and limbs, with the other plant left to find a way to survive.
Now I'm sure I sound super-pessimistic with this whole blog, but its quite the contrary. Because I feel this way, I try to cherish my current time with my surrounding loved ones. Take as much of them in as I can. I would simply hope that I'm being a realist when I say in the end it will be me and my wife, and I'm fine with that. In fact that is what I would like. I love my friends, I love my family, I love so many people I have not even me yet. But just know that I do appreciate every day and memory that is made with you, and I would hope that the feeling is reciprocated.
I personally try to acknowledge my imperfections and work on them with patience. I know that I'm not a perfect man. I know my abilities and certain qualities, but my vices or blemishes sometimes go without notice and so it takes someone to call me out on them or bring them to my attention for me to realize they are there. Now I understand that knowing my own imperfections just doesn't simply make them go away, but gives me a certain perspective in particular situations in my life where I might hurt someones feelings, or make another conscious of an insecurity. Now I try to do my best with handling these daily life dealings, but like I said earlier it takes patience with myself to fully grasp the imperfection.
I have learned with my close ones not too expect too much from anyone. It ultimately ends up in me getting let down or caught with my guard down. Now don't get me wrong, I still have expectations of others, just not to the extent where it could hurt me in the long run. It is sad but true, as the days of our lives pass us each day, we grow older and closer to being wrinkly, elder men and women. I personally feel that the one person that should be held more accountable and to a higher expectation is your spouse or significant other.
In my relatively young and still fresh life, I have seen good friends come and go. And I am a very social, and outgoing individual who in general loves all types of people. But unfortunately as time goes by, our human nature seems to reveal itself a little more. Survival of the Fittest. We tend to choose whats best for ourselves and not necessarily for others. Now the interesting thing is that it is not always a conscious thing that we do, but rather a slow process. Kind of like a plant amongst other living organisms, but has its sunlight slowly taken from it, but not deliberately. Other trees and shrubs grow larger and fuller and tend to nurture there own fruits and limbs, with the other plant left to find a way to survive.
Now I'm sure I sound super-pessimistic with this whole blog, but its quite the contrary. Because I feel this way, I try to cherish my current time with my surrounding loved ones. Take as much of them in as I can. I would simply hope that I'm being a realist when I say in the end it will be me and my wife, and I'm fine with that. In fact that is what I would like. I love my friends, I love my family, I love so many people I have not even me yet. But just know that I do appreciate every day and memory that is made with you, and I would hope that the feeling is reciprocated.
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