2007-What I've learned from it

I would have to say the theme of 2007 was in some ways, a truly learning year. With the cyclone of incidents within my very large circle of friends, it all comes down to very simple concepts. When dealing with friends and family, it is easy to become too involved and eventually too frustrated to exit without making the situation worse. One statement that I can say which I hold on to, especially with all of the drama, mistakes, deceptions, and lies, is that "In order to be forgiven, you must be able to forgive". The only perfect person to ever walk this earth, was crucified while remaining perfect. Yet it is beyond the capacity of some of us to acknowledge our imperfections, while others dwell on them with drowning insecurities.

I personally try to acknowledge my imperfections and work on them with patience. I know that I'm not a perfect man. I know my abilities and certain qualities, but my vices or blemishes sometimes go without notice and so it takes someone to call me out on them or bring them to my attention for me to realize they are there. Now I understand that knowing my own imperfections just doesn't simply make them go away, but gives me a certain perspective in particular situations in my life where I might hurt someones feelings, or make another conscious of an insecurity. Now I try to do my best with handling these daily life dealings, but like I said earlier it takes patience with myself to fully grasp the imperfection.

I have learned with my close ones not too expect too much from anyone. It ultimately ends up in me getting let down or caught with my guard down. Now don't get me wrong, I still have expectations of others, just not to the extent where it could hurt me in the long run. It is sad but true, as the days of our lives pass us each day, we grow older and closer to being wrinkly, elder men and women. I personally feel that the one person that should be held more accountable and to a higher expectation is your spouse or significant other.

In my relatively young and still fresh life, I have seen good friends come and go. And I am a very social, and outgoing individual who in general loves all types of people. But unfortunately as time goes by, our human nature seems to reveal itself a little more. Survival of the Fittest. We tend to choose whats best for ourselves and not necessarily for others. Now the interesting thing is that it is not always a conscious thing that we do, but rather a slow process. Kind of like a plant amongst other living organisms, but has its sunlight slowly taken from it, but not deliberately. Other trees and shrubs grow larger and fuller and tend to nurture there own fruits and limbs, with the other plant left to find a way to survive.

Now I'm sure I sound super-pessimistic with this whole blog, but its quite the contrary. Because I feel this way, I try to cherish my current time with my surrounding loved ones. Take as much of them in as I can. I would simply hope that I'm being a realist when I say in the end it will be me and my wife, and I'm fine with that. In fact that is what I would like. I love my friends, I love my family, I love so many people I have not even me yet. But just know that I do appreciate every day and memory that is made with you, and I would hope that the feeling is reciprocated.